Addicted to you - Poem

Addicted to you

I dare not breathe for fear I will wake up and find that this is all an illusion
I dare not open my eyes in case my mind is playing cruel tricks on me and you are not really there
Nothing more than a vivid dream playing out in real time
A fantasy I have created to fill in the blanks
To give me the love and passion I so crave in my sad, empty life
You are my Prince Charming; I guess that makes me your Cinderella?
A life in need of saving
A body floating helplessly out to sea
I wonder intently why anyone would bother to rescue someone like me

The warmth of your body next to mine fills me with such joy
Your arms like a blanket of soft wool wrapped around mine
Shielding me from real life, from all the sorrow of the world and all the needless pain
Being with you just for a second fills me with overwhelming happiness
A happiness I am a loss to describe
Words fail me when I need them the most
Each moment we are together feels like a decade, a century, a lifetime

Hearing your heartbeat makes me feel so alive
Gives me a purpose, a reason to keep living
With you I feel free as a bird
Able to conquer the world
To spread my wings and fly
I can be myself - the shackles and chains destroyed or at least removed for a short period of time
Yet like a stern warning they always linger close by
Reminding me, watching me
Never letting me be totally free

Every touch so gentle and meaningful
Every kiss so warm and tender
I can see the concentration in your eyes as you strive so hard to please me
To release me from my prison
To bring me to a certain point where every nerve ending is alive and my breath is so fast I feel like my body is on some kind of weird overdrive
Where I am lost in your smell, your taste

Each kiss you plant on my body burning deeply into my porcelain skin
Scars to remind me of my love for you when we are apart
A distance of miles that seems like an ocean, another world
Forced to live separate lives, kept apart by circumstances that eat like a poison at my heart
Regrets aplenty, heartache by the bucketful
Consumed by sadness I dare not speak openly about
A dark shadow that hangs like a demonic monster over my heart
Lives shattered by wrong decisions, words not said, innocence and time
If only – words I say silently over and over again

Your lips so full of passion and energy
Your smile so vibrant and engaging
Melting my icy heart
It skips a beat when you are near, racing to a new profound rhyme
Sweeping me along, my feet never quite touching the ground

A fire rages deep inside whenever you are close by
My body aches with desire and wanting
Wanting more and more from you all the time
Each time I see you I need more, more of your body, more of your soul
Begging you to fill me with your love for me, make me overflow with pleasure
Scream your name from the rooftops over and over again
Purr like a cat as you let me boil over with ecstasy
Allowing the rivers of my body to run wild and free

You run your fingers over my breasts
They outline my body time and time again
Run between my legs
I am in heaven
I long to freeze time, to get it to stand still
Please let this never ever end

I am like a car out of control
A train about to derail, sliding helplessly off the tracks

Afraid to step too far over the line, to reach the point of no return
I do not let all of my barricades down afraid of the consequences if I let you right in
I cannot let go of all my inhibitions
Warning lights flash red constantly in my minds eye reminding me that I am not yours

Without you I would crumple up and die
The world would be a world of darkness
I would suffocate from the intolerable silence
Wishing I was dead, no longer alive
Never to see your face again
To hear you speak my name
I could not live if I was forced to cut you out of my life
Severing ties with you would be like cutting out my very being
Extinguishing my very existence
Crushing my soul like a dried up leaf lying on the ground

Tingling from the inside out
I am consumed with love, a love so magical I feel as if I might explode
Like tiny stars I would cascade like a fountain over your naked body engulfing you in my everlasting love
Your hand brushing over my face, sweeping away my hair
Like silk swathed around my naked body
Your legs curled around mine protecting me, making me feel loved
A cage of steel
A princess in her tower

Your eyes like deep pools of water
Inviting and rich in colour
Your skin soft to the touch
Welcoming, like a beacon of bright light
Electricity fills the air when we are together
It lights up my soul
Like the lights of a cathedral shining bright for everyone near and far to see
Consuming me with feelings I cannot understand
Feelings that are so new, so fresh
Never experienced in this life before

You are like a drug
Addictive, I crave for more

The pain when we are separated is like a knife stabbing at my heart
Splitting it in two
My thoughts muddled and confused
I cannot think, I cannot feel
I am lost without you
Falling, alone – nothing to cling to

I am scared
Afraid to look to the future
Scared of what is come
Dreams shattered like buildings destroyed by war
You and I casualties of the battle
Blood spattered and lying dead just lifeless husks on the floor
I fear that this is the ending, what is to come