No Regrets - Poem

No Regrets

We never meant for it to go this far
We didn’t set out to destroy one another
At first we were happy, young, innocent and in love
We could do anything and be anyone
We had the whole world at our feet
The laughs soon turned to tears
The kind words to words of anger and hate
A gulf emerged between us
Our energy was slowly drained away
The sparks of passion once between us just vanished over night
We tried to pretend that things would be ok
We hid our private lives behind a public masquerade
Smiling and happy on the outside for all the world to see
Dying on the inside
Sleeping in separate beds
Something that only you and I could see
In the end there was no going back
A hastily packed suitcase and a few sharp words
A lifetime’s love was packed away just like that
No regrets that is what we said
Echoes of silence fill an awkward air
A burning pain in my heart, tears stinging in my eyes
So many words I want to say but I just let you walk away
Hiding behind false smiles I watch you disappear from view
Alone in this big old house I feel empty without you
The tears I tried to suppress fall like a river from my eyes
I fall to the floor and weep like a baby
My whole life has just fallen apart with the slamming of the front door
I want to run after you and tell you that I still love you
Let’s give our relationship one more try
I don’t want you to leave like this with not even a goodbye
Battered and bruised from years of agony I rise up off the floor
I rush down the stairs and pull open the door
You are still sat in your car – motionless
Tears in your eyes you look at me and form half a smile
Relief fills my heart my body begins to tremble
As you get out of the car I pull you towards my body
I kiss you on the lips and hold your shaking body close to mine
“I love you,” I whisper
“Please don’t go”
“There will be no regrets I promise, please lets try again?”
You look into my eyes and I wait patiently for your reply
The silence seems to last forever
You pull away and look awkwardly to the floor
I can feel in my heart the words that you are about to say
They pull at my body
“You think that you still love me and that if I stay things will be ok”
As she stumbles back to her car I hear her say
“I love you”
The car roars off down the drive way and I am left alone once more
There is nothing to smile about and I have no energy left to cry
I walk back inside and shut the front door
From somewhere in the back of my mind I hear a quiet voice saying, “remember – no regrets”